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well… so long never update my blog… now i am content with my life although i am always tired & not enough sleep due to work… but i really happy as i really have found veryli closed collegues at nyk  that i can depend on.. they brighten my day & always cheer me up when i super stress….my love life is still xin fu la….. of course my deaest mei mei… love u deep deep… so what i can ask for… my life is completed and i have nothing to ask for..except money is never enough…

Well..i going to leave HNH soon..somehow i feel relieve and stress..cos i going to NYK logistics soon.. a new environment and different job scope.. i  dont know if i can cope or not.. but any way i believe i can make it through. Life is never easier for me sia.

Hee hee..wElL 05 april is a day when Me & dear dear "s dReam Car bOrn.Tis day which we hoping for so long. 

finally i moved back home.. feeling? as usual being nagged by my mei mei ever now and then…ah yo..cant stand her sometimes..nowdays feeling vexed.. cos feeling neglected by friends.. but maybe also i had not much friends..hAI…not only tat felt tat i am useless at times..maybe seeing other ppl so successful but i am still in the air wandering around..feeling lost… dont know at times wat am i tinking about…i already 24 but still i still dont know wat i really wan  & wat i like to do…how i wish someone will tell me wat to do…well.. no matter wat… i willl keep on going…

now started working at the logistics company. hmmm. quite enjoy the job  very much but too much work load to be done.. every day stayed back until eight plus then can go back.. so  tired.. like no life..some more veryli stressed…made my temper not veryli good.. often lose temper to my darling.. luckly he can endure my bad bad temper… always give in to me… ( but he no choice :):) hee hee. nOw my goal is to earn lots lots $$.. save lots lots $$ cos Me & my darling are going buy car soon so i must save up soon.. some more i need to go take up driving lesson to get car license.. if not i veryli lose out cos tat darling of my will get the chance to drive while i only can sit but cant drive.. made me feel retarded..rite…

Left home for about five months, i missed my home so much… miss my mummy..my mei mei & di di.. though of going back…but was afraid tat when i go back…dunno wat my dad will do to me. sometimes i cried cos i miss my mei mei a lot. she used to sleep with me , talk to me until i sleep off. now i had to sleep alone with her not around.. my mei mei always ask me to go back… middle of the night she will cry and call me that she miss me.. my heart ached a lot when i heard tat…mei mei..promise me tat you will sleep well and really take care of yourself… i will go back home but i need time to get mentally prepared before i go back…

out of sudden.. i leave my home for good, all because of my father. He forever getting drunk once in a fortnight.. always threaten us tat he wan to sell the flat away.He always say thing like.. take our things out and move out.. i dont wan to see you. Not because of my mum.. i have already  leave tat home long time ago. This time he was really too much. Can you imagine wat he did.. he locked the door and refused let me and mummy in. Left with no choice.. i called the police.. when the police arrived.. he of no choice but to open the door.. he was being questioned by the police.. guess wat he said to the police..he was sleeping so cant heard we knocking the door… so lame rite… acted as if we do not have the house key. so ended up my auntie came to fetch me and mummy to bukit panjang home…stupid rite… now i dont have a home..ah … now i veryli the stressed.. dunno if i can pass the test or not cos i applied for the bank post as a teller… must undergo training plus the test…ah yo…further more my mummy so soft hearted later if my father came to fetch her.. she will become soft again and the history shall began all over again…. oh my god.. why do i have to suffer all this ah….

After 3 and half year…i finally graduated with a dipolma cert. After long term of suffering…after failing five module, i had finally finish my studies..almost wan to give up halfway through…going through the days i went through..go to school early..later go work then still must pei my dear dear…luckly he is always there to support me… and my precious mei mei..suffered so much for the family..now graduated.. can shared her burden…help to support the family…Now my hope is to find a good job i likes and have a good career in near future…..

Today the weather is veryli good so i went wild wild wet with my dear dear at NTUC downtown East. We reach there at about 245. It was quite fun and the first place we go to is the shioke River. We just sit on the floats and enjoyed splashing the water. The next one is the pirates splash, i go myself without my dear dear cos he had height fright…see how brave i was heee hee(the life guard say so).. The next one is the SkyRider which i was quite afraid of..imagine i had to cycle around in a circle at about three storey high ba.. i keep asking dear dear how long can we need to reach the destination. somemore dear dear still tell me to cycle slowly to enjoy the scency.. tHe most scary one is the tsumami.. i and dear dear took one float each..we sat on it… the water is quite strong..the minute we knew it.. we were at 1.8m high..then i was being separated from my dear dear.. somemore i was near the danger line… i dont know how to paddle back to the safe zone..i keep shouting for dear dear.. but he was so far away from me.. he ask me to paddle backward but i could know how to paddle.Instead i paddle wrongly..i was even nearer to the danger Zone.. i dont know how to swim.. i get afraid..afraid that i fall off the float.. all i could do was to shout for dear dear.. he try to get me as fast as he could.. i almost wqn to cried out.. lucky i get on of my dear dear liao.. i blame myself of being so stupid… dont know how to paddle.. i think all of you must think that i quite stupid also rite. so we went to the not so deep Zone to play with the water.. the last one we went to is the massage pool… so comfortable.. just sit here and enjoyed the water being splash…we played until five plus to get changed and set for home…wat a enjoyable  day we had..wan to come Wild wild Wet for so long.. today finally can come.. hee hee..but i enjoyed myself very much….

HAi.. recently just dunno how to say about my dear dear. We are quarreling over tiny matter. He told me that i had to inform him everything i do. Wherever i go must tell him. But i feel that i need not to inform him everything i do. After much thought, i Feel that he just too concern for me. I had been with him for the past 4 and half years. Although i admit that i dont love him so much as before, he is still very good to me. But sometimes i really cant endure him, like he always likes to give comment, likes to tell me this is the i should do. What i should do or not do. He always decide things for me, feel that this is the best for me. But he never if this is really wat i wan. Even he knows, he will say that i am stubborn ba. Well i know he is too concerned about me, always feel that i too vain too innocent ba, afraid that ppl might take advantage of me. But without him, i think i cant go this far ba. cos i really too vain i think. But any way i think i still Xin Fu ba. Cos he always give in to me even he knows that i in the wrong. Humans arent Perfect.